Nigga back again Self deprecating rap again Los anderson he left But still bereft I feel like crap again Friends lost, enemies made money lost, no debt repaid feeling lost and seeking graves Misbehave but work like a slave Hating everything I love Loving everything I hate Tell me can you relate Knowing nothing and feeling fake And I'm face to face with my destiny Circumstances rejected me Google search for the recipe Seeing life more objectively Hawk, I'm fly like i'm steven Can't talk and barely breathing I search for sleep in the evening Afraid and don't know the reason The end is near I done seent it Destruction it looks so scenic Castastrophe all this blasphemy Who will rise like a phoenix Yall make me feel like a genius But I just think wit my penis 3 billion people are evil How many folks come from venus The morning star loosely listens I'm flipping out in the kitchen Losing all of my say so Grew devil horns and a halo I been feeling so conflicted like Am I a good person or am I Just another fuck niggah Whassup Put ya hands up nigga Hands up nigga Say wassup Whassup To a fuck nigga Hands up Whassup To a fuck nigga Hands up Whassup To a fuck nigga Who am I Iono maybe i'm tripping Or maybe its just self deprecation I'm facing Or maybe its the lack of inspiration Adjacent I mean Whassup In this identity crisis I pray to God I can fight it My inner flame turn to cinder Struggle so I can ig No no no This aint it This aint it Ok how about I just tell everybody How much of an asshole I actually am The asshole is in me Its coming out of my jimmy Its screaming gimme more gimme My actin could win an emmy My rappin is just a gimmick My finicky nature hates it I'm posturing for the status Fake til i'm the greatest but Don't we all do that Everybody who rap Ain't how you make it just be yourself Who dat I'm saying I hide my real feelings So you all would like If I said what I was really thinking I bet you all would fight me And I hate all I hate it Basic bitches don't debate it Mainstream Whether its symptomatic Pragmatism, it don't change things My asshole-ism is hidden Just below the surface My behavior is glitch ridden Tryna be so perfect FEELING WORTHLESS I been searching for my purpose sitting in this church Watching satan preach to pagans While Juanita heals the hurt And I been hurting Feeling pain I didn't know the trigga So the result was the introduction of A fuck nigga Whassup

This is the story The moment of glory A minute of blame An hour of shame The secret of life The truth in a death I wanna live right How many days left Gasp for a breath Take me a breather Talking to satan The preacher, Juanita Cold as a sore My life is abreva The tragedy hinges On tracks like a train I'm derailing, i'm failing I'm sailing, i'm hidden in Shadows i'm dealing wit pain Going insane Satan fuckin wit my brain Preacher teachin never change Demons claiming i'm deranged Family calling every easter Screaming curses more than peacha Floating free within the ether This is the story the moment of glory Singing hymns on the sunday choir Sing of destruction, disaster and fire lil ass boy, it was fear I aquired from a fake ass pastor who follow desire the congregated youth fill the pews for a liar We only learn the truth on a funeral pyre It's gon rain, Paranoia These lies lead me to become a destroyer the syncopated hatred of my colony starts from the moment I was raised back in colony park I knew I had a problem When my problem was dark Fear of the void I enjoyed like the covenant Ark to the raiders Say my prayers I hope they reach they mark pray God please save me A Naive baby Doomed since his birth Nine years after Eighty

Just A lil nigga from A small town in Sc Felt a preachers lies Sacreligion came to test me Hellspawn in heaven's army It always vexed me Every night these demons Would arrest me Could feel it in my testes Skim the surface like a jet ski Quote the highlight specular My life within the secular Dealing wit no daddy there Really wish he had a pair Every night a nightmare I do this on the regular Assume that i'm sewing a seed I act garbage Every sin that i'm sowing indeed Impacts harvest Far from being the hardest I hardened until I parted Became a target Closed minded and broken hearted Often started but never finished My life during high school Cultivated a menace Bent on playing by my rules GOTDAMN Sleep late and fuck classes Lied to my teachers, pray to God That I would pass this Breaking rules for the fuck of it Dark dreams as a teen I was stuck wit it Road to perdition Hoping and wishing I become rich as a bitch That's my mission Fuck my inhibition Fuck doing these dishes Fuck prepping for college Fuck ya superstition Nigga I wishing that a nigga Would step to me Break em like a record in a Second so immpeccably But one night It all changed How did a life so plain Gain so much strain And become so strange I'm estranged from my Father But I know his voice Fell asleep one night And thus, began my plight With my eyes wide shut shut Soul wide open Open Smoke filled room and the buzz of a locust Red Red of the lotus Trying to awaken Heard a dark voice whisper I AM SATAN

Rebelling for rebellion's sake But wait Levy destruction in my wake And hate Any nigga wit more on his plate That's fake A robot i'm locked like carl lake His elbows In circles I spin it chappelle show Steady tryna copy pharell flow I'm 16 getting stood up Steady tryna stand out Ingrate izzy busy with his hand out That's me Amble down a broken path On the mic fire bite like anjanath He unapologetic boi and he brash Better not step to him witcho candy ass That's a front In the night full of fright From the visits On the low got him tight sorta right At his limit Can't express in a rhyme No time for a minute of reprieve Only reprimand Harsh when he get the chance never take a second dance Fumble over feet Everclear where the record lands Drunk on delusions In conclusion I was reckless man Wild when he idle Put his fate in the devil hands Mask from the church I was masking the hurt Then I bask in the dirt Wit the flask I would flirt Any task I would merk but the past always lurk Left a gash in the surface I laugh at the worst Althewhile the facade had a crack Whisper in the dark and this love on my lap Bridge to my vice and a demon on my back Juanita called out I think I finally snapped